I've taken a break from writing, the last two months actually. Not just because my magazine is now being published monthly...well, okay that is a big reason for my time schedule being full. But mainly because a growing frustrating has been building.
Truth be told...it's not really the waiting that has me frustrated with writing...even though I haven't heard my from my editor regarding revisions I returned almost three months ago. I'm questioning my writing ability. Is my writing good enough? Are my story plots interesting enough to grab a reader's attention?
What does it take to be a best selling author? I don't know. But then again, I don't write with that in mind. I write stories I hope readers will find enjoyable.
While my frustration sits, I get an email that one of my books has been chosen for audio. Then I receive a royalty report showing how many of my books sold. The result is okay. I don't write with expectations of making thousands of dollars. I'm a realist. However, I can't help but smile when my Christmas and Winter themed novels sells several copies in the middle of summer. Then, just yesterday I received an email that another book has been picked for audio. My spirits lift, and I think, maybe I am an okay writer.
I need to dust off the frustration and believe in my writing and my stories. If just a handful of people enjoyed a story I wrote, then my time and effort was well worth it.